The path I have walked in my life very much informs the work I do with my clients.
I now know that the pain I have suffered through in my life is a gift, as it gives me the direct experience of KNOWING and understanding with every cell of my body the trauma, the fear, the sadness, the anger and the hopelessness that my clients feel.
I lived most of my life in anxiety, self-loathing, depression, shame and resentment. I hated myself, I hated life, I hated other people and I felt hopeless and alone. I didn’t trust anyone, least of all myself. I was mired in negative thinking and limiting patterns that held me captive, doing anything and everything to escape myself and my pain. I avoided accepting full responsibility for my life and well-being at all costs. I played the victim card until I wore it out – after all, I HAD been let down, mistreated, abused and abandoned and that wasn’t MY fault…I was just a child when all of this happened, so how could it be MY responsibility? I was stuck and I felt hopeless, resourceless and worthless, in total denial of my own power. Even once I realized my patterns of victimization, it took many years to completely pull out of living my life in that limiting, fearful way. To do so meant to give up my identity and be willing to become who I really am, and that was scary indeed.